- T.B. LaBerge // Want (via tblaberge)
I’m most vulnerable at night when all the thinking and feeling lonely happens.
I just finished my last class. Yay for surviving 9:00 am- 10 pm day.
My life at the moment is so out of order yet I manage to make it seem like it isn’t. I feel like I’m living aimlessly , just trying to get by through the day without really feeling it. I stride by sidewalks from building to building without being in it. My thoughts have gone away some place else. Slowly, I feel like I being sucked out of life. It is like, out of all the strength I have left, I am trying to grasp that little hope that I will be able to turn myself around and start with little steps to the life I want to be living in.
Why is it that I’m constantly going back to being so out of place in life? Why is it that I lack that self-motivation to be the best I can be so I can live the life I’d like to live?
I’m hoping that this time alone that I currently have will teach me to reconstruct my life and to also be able to learn how to be emotionally independent, so that when I take a stab in my future life I am ready to live it the way I can handle it.